Contemporary Killings

in using the masochistic blade of chivalry i am dining my bloody death stench. the hate of antipathy and indifference is killing me, like cold caviar churning upstream. i need to get out. help me get out of this. i feel nothing. i have felt nothing. i am not in love and every time i say it a piece of me is discarded. i think i might have to kill someone to escape. it is not that i don't care, it's that i don't care enough. monogamy is not what i want right now.